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[05 Nov 2010|12:29pm] |
things always get a little bit better, then ten times worse right after
sometimes i wonder if he knows i have feelings, he certainly doesnt act like it
im so god damn spineless and i let people get away with these things
i just need something to let me forget...
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[26 May 2010|11:56am] |
do i always have to be the one who gets hurt?
FUCK MY LIFE
i hate myself
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[30 Mar 2010|10:39pm] |
i think im going to transfer to macomb... ahhh i dont know what to do with my life anymore :/
oh well.
it happens i guess.
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[19 Oct 2009|11:53pm] |
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wow
i feel like an idiot
karma?
its probably that.
its been building up against me for a long time now.
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[04 Oct 2009|11:34am] |
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i guess i have to take back my last entry now
:]]]
and cool concert tonight? i think so!
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[24 Sep 2009|08:59pm] |
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Must all my relationships end before they actually start?
Wait, yes, because no one is stupid enough to actually want to be with me.
That has been proven many times already.
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[11 Sep 2009|10:19am] |
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I PASSED MY ROAD TEST
i bet no one ever thought that would happen
i was so nervous
i was convinced i failed before i started :P
OH AND I SAW MIKE SUPER YESTERDAY, HES FUCKING AWESOME, AND LAVENOUS
AND HE MAKES UP WORDS!!!!!!!!!!
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[04 Sep 2009|10:57am] |
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Dwoodys in the hospital with a broken neck :[
I must say Im happy hes alive...
I just hope he has a good recovery.
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[30 Aug 2009|12:36am] |
I drive pretty much all the time now. I bet no one ever thought that was going to happen. Not like I have much of a choice, school does start in like 3 days. Im so nervous :[
Life is okay though. Cant complain much. I would like a job, but Im kind of glad I wont have one for the beginning of the year. I need to get used to things. Leaves me more time to hang out with this cute boy that I cant seem to get out of my head :] Seriously. I dont know what it is about him, but Im hooked.
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[26 Aug 2009|11:31pm] |
Im going to Cedar Point tomorrow, but Im kind of dreading it.
For one, its JUST my family. Boring. I really wanted Alex to go, but they decided at like 8 that we are going tomorrow so they didnt want to bring anyone with us. Ughhghh
Also, I imagine my leg is gonna not be very happy with me. I mean, it doesnt bother me anymore, but I havent been on it for 10 hours straight, so I think its going to be bad news.
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[21 Aug 2009|11:47pm] |
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Today was probably the last day Ill see Eric for like a month :/ Nice little going away party at Ashlynns. It was fun. I got sucked into hanging out with Alex the whole time. Its cool though. It was really weird when Chris said something like "I didnt know you guys were together." How do you react to that when you arent really? Huh. I guess its just odd when we hang out with everyone. It wasnt so bad at my party since everyone was pretty much gone, but when everyones in a normal state of mind it gets awkward.
I feel like Im going to throw up everywhere still from the feast yesterday. Gary, Ross and I are awesome. Ross ate a rice crispie treat wrapped in a fruit by the foot. Hahaha. Anyway. Im gonna did. Im gonna did so good. So Im gonna go to sleep now. :P
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[12 Aug 2009|06:20pm] |
So I like Alex a lot.
mistake?
maybe.
Im sure no matter who it was it wouldnt work out.
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[16 Jul 2009|01:23pm] |
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Yesterday was Zac Willies birthday so Eric, Matt, Justin, Gary and I went to his house to bother him. Zacs mom is scary. Zac is stupid. It was really fun though, I guess. Eric and Justin convinced me to go to warped tour too (though none of us really know why we are all going, other than to make fun of Ross).
Today... I dont know whats happening. My cousins woke me up like an hour ago to use our pool that hasnt been cleaned since before my dad left. So they can have fun with that. I guess it is pretty hot...
Tomorrow I have orientation. For a really long time. It should be interesting. Apparently I was supposed to take placement tests before, but fuck it. Anyway, Im probably going to see the midnight imax showing of the dark knight with Mike and Dan.
Friday Im going to WARPED TOUR. hmmmmm...
Saturday is Dan Loshs party. Should be awesome.
Right now I am eating fruit snacks.
So Jimmy, is that better?
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[15 Jul 2009|02:21am] |
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i didnt know that awake was a mood
but it makes me question
why isnt sleeping?
its not the same as sleepy.
though itd be pretty hard to post an entry when youre sleeping.
still...
mike is really awesome
and really stupid.. hahah.
i learned both of those things today.
life is good.
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[06 Jul 2009|02:12am] |
Its amazing how the right sentence from the right person can completely change my day :]]
I reeeaally hope I dont change on this one again ...
considering how well I know myself.
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[06 Jun 2009|11:53pm] |
UGGGGH Erics pissing me off big time
but unfortunately, the thing that bothers me the most is that hes mad at me...
I wish people could just hate me for things that have nothing to do with them and I could get over it, but damn it I have to have feelings.
I need to be thrown off a very tall building.
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[02 Jun 2009|01:35am] |
So... Garrett actually... apologized.
Also in a way that basically sounded like he was obsessed with me.. but its a start.
I dont know... I dont want him to get the wrong idea. I still dont like him as more than a friend.
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[31 May 2009|12:59am] |
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Well, things are pretty shitty right now.
Hopefully what Maria said will change things a bit.
But... that would be giving a lot of credit to Garrett.
I dont think that he will be willing to take back the things he said about me...
Thatll probably be the only way his "loyal followers" will forgive me too.
Not that I think I did anything wrong.
I guess this is just how things work out for me.
Its just stupid, I hated feeling like every time I was around him I was being pressured to like him. Is that so wrong? Im pretty sure enough of that would get on anyones nerves. I dont like Garrett as more than a friend and I never will. And honestly, I think thats completely understandable. Hes not exactly "boyfriend material." Im just not into that get drunk and high every day and run from cops scene. And as for him paying for prom... okay, he doesnt have a job so his PARENTS paid for it, not him. Oh, and I seem to recall me throwing a birthday party for him not too long ago, and paying with my own money, not my parents.
WOW GARRETT IM SORRY IM SUCH A BAD PERSON, YOUR PARENTS PAID FOR US TO GO TO PROM TOGETHER AND I DIDNT WANT TO DANCE WITH YOU BECAUSE I HAVE A BROKEN LEG.
AND THEN YOU CALLED ME A BITCH, TOLD ERIC YOU WERENT DRIVING ME HOME, AND TURNED HALF OF MY FRIENDS AGAINST ME.
right, I deserve this.
Ahhh I had to get this out.
Matt uninviting to his party because of this made me cry... for like an hour. And then I stayed in bed pouting until I decided that I should try cleaning my house because it makes me feel better.
I thought these people were my best friends, and all it takes is Garrett being mad at me to change that. Im not sure if Eric is mad at me... I messaged him asking him. He hasnt really talked to me since it and when Im around him he kinda acts like Im not there.
The only people who I know arent mad are Gary, Maria, Justin and Kyle.
At least I have them.
This is like my longest entry.. ever.
It just shows that being friends with guys is not a way to avoid drama. And I thought that was one of the major benefits.
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[29 May 2009|11:52pm] |
yay!
i graduated!
im pretty sure i win!
(minus the part where i had crutches... at least they were GOLDEN!)
now if only i could get the man of my dreams... ;]
though im pretty sure he still doesnt like me back
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[18 May 2009|04:25pm] |
Hes seriously mistaken if he thinks I want him around.
He acts like hes "protecting" me.
I can take care of myself, thanks.
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